I am sitting here at 1:17 a.m writing for a blog I am still unsure if I am going to really put a lot of effort into if I am completely honest. I feel like writing for a personal blog, for some reason, is something that I have always felt like I have wanted to do. In the past I have either not given in or have given in but deleted all the evidence later. Personally, I’m religious so I believe that God has a plan for my life and if I was a perfect person, which I’m not, in a perfect world, which it’s not, I would follow to the dot but because of the imperfections, due to Adam and Eve and yada yada yada, I am here trying to stay on God’s path because it brings joy and triumph over mountains versus struggle and feeling distance in my relationship with God. This got really real but hey, I’m nothing if an open book, and trust me that book is not short.
To be honest, this isn’t my first post exactly. Like I said, I have made and ditched plenty of blogs in the past and none of them made it past 20 followers; however, I will say that was very exciting for me at the time and I am lowkey proud to this day! Anyways, I just think that it is important to note that I am not exactly a newbie. I may be young but I am definitely not completely unqualified to adult.
That is my struggle at the moment! Being on a current job hunt, I find that I am begging people to confirm that I am qualified enough for the positions they are offering! It is such a negative mindset! I go in to apply trying to be everything I can possibly think they would want me to be and I have yet to get a call back. It has honestly beat me down pretty hard and that is why I have chosen to finally give myself the creative outlet I have always craved: creating content for a living.
That is the goal at least, if I am completely honest. Not that I am trying to take the “easy road” or just “trying to be famous” but I sincerely enjoy the shit out of all of this. The editing, production, marketing, strategizing, analyzing, and creating and those are only the elements I have gotten to delve into so far!
I know that having an interest has to be stronger to build a career, especially from nothing, but I have the motivation now and coupled with a little excitement in the beginning I am hoping I can go far.
This isn’t my end all be all. In the end if this doesn’t catch major media it won’t be a total heartbreak because I know how proud I’ll be of what I created. Because that’s the thing, I want to create content that works with me and my interests because I do think those interests are common and others might like to share their lives with me and vice versa. That ties back to the analysis and strategy mentioned earlier. I read everywhere that it is important to know your market and to target that market and know their interests, but I’m over here like, “I want people to like me, but I want people to like me while I’m doing me”, you know?
I don’t know. Maybe this rambling is going to attract zero attention. I don’t care 😉
If you did make it to this point I sincerely appreciate you humoring me. Your attention span is much stronger than my own! Also to conclude, you now know why I’m here in a roundabout way. I think that is enough details to start, this is my introduction after all. I want to keep making personal content but I am also going to couple it with my interests like fashion and beauty. If you like content that a general somewhat girly twenty year old would like, I have way too much time on my hands and would love your support for my content pushing heart ❤
so sappy
thank you xx
your favorite unemployed twenty year old
p.s thought I wasn’t going to mention that on my blog because I shouldn’t be proud of that but if you didn’t understand from the post I will clarify that I am looking for a job but struggling in this moment. if you have a problem with that I’m sorry. if you don’t…follow me
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